Updated: Dec 16, 2020
JUST SHOW UP
He hung up on me!
And he pissed me off.
He made me cry.
He held the line and I pouted like a little brat and I love him for all of it.
I remember I had the audacity to take a 90 day leadership course during the tail end of an abusive relationship. Ballsy huh?
I was stressed to the hilt in an unhappy marriage, twisted to the point of breaking in a high pressure job I hated. My ex said I would blow a blood vessel in my forehead and stroke out from all the screaming at everyone I did. I was a harpy….
I remember crying one day about how I hated my job. When he asked me what I wanted to do, I said I wanted to be a paramedic.
That is all I said. I wanted to. I became an EMT making shit money but I was happier, yet I still played the “one day” game.
A few years later I was working as an EMT, 5 kids at home, crazy cheating wildin ass husband with a heavy hadn and along comes this 90 day leadership class (comes with a team, a coach, a partner and...GOALS!!). I WAS SOLD!
I had no idea what I was getting myself into.
In no way was I prepared for the depth of which I would look into my soul nor the amount of love it would take for my coach to get me there.
I went in to this work in a state of terrible self esteem and self doubt. I did not have the ability to say no, saw obstacles and rules in every situation and I was STUBBORN.
I remember Cary asking me about my personal goal (because I cleverly worked on the other three first and most often) and this goal was so big in my heart that i avoided it.
Carey: Let’s talk about your goal?
Me: which one?